'The Works'

Song List

Next

* * * *

There is no name to this text, but I call this my Arcana Song, cos I composed it while listening to a tune by this Swedish Gothic band...



Holding the sun in my hands
staring straight into the blaze
I thought that I was immortal
my soul at one with the rays

Now, in the cave of my darkness,
blinded, I’m lying alone
all I can see is the marks on my hands
fingers burned to the bone

I tried to reach the unreachable
to hold what cannot be held
I didn’t know it was useless
I didn’t hear the knell

Now, in the cave of my blindness
all I can do is recall
the bliss that was mine when I held her
her sunshine that held me enthralled

She smiles to other people
she even smiles to me
but the beams of the sun I have lost
bring me nothing but agony

Now, in the cave of my loneliness
I look at the marks on my hands
the tokens of heavenly ecstasy
of the time when I felt no pain

Why do I wait for the dawn then
wait for the sun to appear
seeking the joy that I used to know
through the film of uncalled-for tears

And here, in the cave of my madness
I know my scars won’t heal
I love the weapon that hurts me
and embrace the murderous steel




© November 2003